
Millones de Segundos (Millions of Seconds)
Theatre
2018
Argentina
In 2016, Kayden Clarke, an American autistic trans man, was shot dead by police after his mother called emergency services due to Kayden being suicidal. (So-called "suicide by cop".) In 2018, Argentine writer/director Diego Casado created a play about a trans man named Alan, inspired by Kayden. Alan is played by Argentine actress Raquel Ameri, and is shown binding with bandages, fully naked, and being forcibly undressed.
Trailer.
Review, snippets.
Review.
Available Summary:
Esta obra está inspirada en hecho reales. Alan es un adolescente transexual con síndrome de Asperger. Cuando tenía cinco años, supo que era de otro planeta y empezó a contar los segundos que le quedaban para dejar de vivir en ese cuerpo. Hoy tiene 554 millones de segundos y aún conserva la esperanza de empezar su transformación y poder seguir usando el baño de varones. No soporta las ventanas abiertas, le gustan las puertas cerradas, grabarse videos y subirlos a youtube, enumerarlo todo. Esta es su historia.
Note from Jack:
I'm an autistic trans bloke, a real one. Watching both this trailer and this review left a bad taste in my mouth. A light-skinned, slender actress playing a trans man, wrapping bandages around her chest while tragic music swells to emphasise the trans man's pitiable life... Fiddling with a Rubik's Cube to show that the trans man is autistic... The trans man being forcibly stripped and his nude body revealed...
Did the writer/director or actress consider that Kayden Clarke would probably hate being portrayed this way, or hate people claiming that his story is accurately represented by this play? Kayden was a trans man who, due to his autism, was denied gender-affirming care and suffered so much that he was driven to commit suicide. His body looking, sounding, and being gendered in a particular way immensely impacted his mental health, alongside other issues that he faced. An actress exposing her female body onstage, and being forcibly undressed, is not a respectful way to depict a trans male character inspired by Kayden.
This is not the only time that Kayden was misrepresented after death. An American news outlet had to publish a follow-up article after publishing an account which, thanks to police and the people in Kayden's life, referred to him as a woman without any indication of how he identified, indicating the lack of agency and validation which drove him further into despair.
In this article, Raquel Ameri is applauded for playing Alan. She describes a trans male audience member telling her that the play reminded him of moments from his own life. Certainly, I have not viewed the play and know that not all trans men have the same opinions, so I won't make any claims about how moving or worthwhile the entire production was for others. I know I wouldn't want to watch it. Make of that what you will.
Entry last updated:
6 Apr 2026